I Keep On Falling July 19 2012, 0 Comments

Romans 5:1 -Amplified Bible (AMP)

Whenever I listen to this song it reminds me about what i've recently been learning about God's Grace. I think that for the most part of my 20's I stayed away from Church and my relationship with Christ because I never understood his grace. I remember my excuses; "I'm not living right to act fake" "I've fornicated this year and I don't think I plan on stopping, God doesn't like that" "I have HATE in my heart for a lot of people I dislike, I can't forgive them right now" Even though my heart was always wanting to live a pure life, my own condemnation kept me away from assembling with others who could teach me about God's grace for my life. Because I kept listening to my own suggestions as to why I didn't deserve God's Love for what I was doing, my life slowly started spiraling out of control. I started relaxing on my morals and being OK with just a "Little Sin" here and there.. My 1st Alcoholic Drink came on my 21st B'day.. Initially my morals from being a preachers child &  following Christ as a youngster kept me this far from this trap but I let what the culture around me (being in College) let me put my guard down. within a few years, It was Bottles at nightclubs, Fornicating with women I did not intend to marry, Smoking Black & Milds to Smoking What the President had tried as a youngster  because after all, God did make plants right? I did not realize how much i'd fallen until I found myself asking about X-pills. Then It was Pills, Smokes, Drinks & Women. Different Nights, Different Cities, Different OK's to let my life just be. I don't even know what I was trying to escape. (Actually I do, but that's for my book) But I remember that everyday it was still there. I'm here today because of God's Grace. As I look back to what I opened up myself to, it's only by his Grace that I did not Die from drunken nights driving home alone like a few of my friends ended up. It is by his Grace that I did not impregnate any of the women who I was loosely spending time with. It is by his Grace that I am No Longer Drinking, Smoking, Feeling like a little bit of this and that is OK because everyone around me is doing it. God's grace allows us to pick up from whatever stage in life that we are in to repent, Look to Christ for deliverance and knowing that He already DIED for whatever Mental Prison that the Enemy has led you to believe that you are left to stay in. It allows you to triumphantly say to your suggestions that you are NO LONGER the person that he tries to make you think that YOU ARE. You are NO LONGER the person you THINK that everyone around you THINKS you are. You were made in God's Image. Christ Died so that you can let go of whatever has been burdening you to this day. The same Christ who Graces Murderers who changed their lives around is the same Christ who can give you the same power to Overcome whatever thoughts or issues you've been in. When I realized that Grace, I was able to move forward with the LIFE I was meant to have and I have walked in this new life with such a sense of entitlement that some friends from the past don't know what to do with the changes they've seen. I can only give the glory to God because I would not be living this Life that was originally meant for me to live if I kept the same mindset of feeling Un-Graced as I did in my twenties. YOU ARE GRACED TO BE EXACTLY WHO GOD ORIGINALLY FORMED YOU TO BE. ACCEPT IT & MOVE FORWARD IN YOUR WALK & LEAVE YOUR PAST ISSUES & MISTAKES BEHIND. Want to learn More about Grace? [Come to my Church with me This Sunday & EVERY Sunday Night at 7pm El Elyon International Church 1830 W. Glenrosa Ave Phoenix, AZ 85015 On 19th Avenue & 2 Blocks North of Indian School Road. On the NE Corner]   #ThankYouGodBless @AceBlack www.Facebook.com/ThankYouGodBless